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Tuesday, May 18th 2021

1:46 PM

Strength & Time

Well a man in my dreams was asking me "Why do you want to be strong." and I just kept thinking like how good it feels to be in the fire like that and no one can touch you (untouchable).

Than, he showed himself to me so that I could see his entire body like a sculpture with a 360 degree vantage point and I could not believe how many muscles I could see! He was in appearance as a God/ Gladiator so I know it was a pagan God but, I will keep that part away from human's eyes.

He was wearing a black leather gladiator belt and I found it so beautiful. It was adorned with furs,(like a white rabbit's tail and a silver fox too.) Jewelry, set in puzzling rings, worn around the waist, much like a belt and also extra straps, to allow for coverage and freedom in any physical position and movement.

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Tuesday, May 18th 2021

1:42 PM

A lot of Mail

I kept looking outside at my window because the dogs were making such a commotion and I noticed the mail had came. So, I went and checked it and there were several packages addressed to me. It made me feel so happy.

Then, I couldn't believe it because the dogs started to act up again and then I realized that the mail man had came back a second time. (Which is unusual because mail is only usually delivered once a day!)

Then, it happened up to four time that day then I could remember. It seemed like every time I emptied the space up for the mail, than new packages and envelopes filled it up completely!

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Sunday, May 2nd 2021

7:44 AM

Black Lion Dream

The black lion appeared to my side in a haze of grey smoke. He had green eyes and a full black hairy mane. He has a black tail made from a black candle flame. He said he was protecting me from evil telepathically & I knew someone had negative intentions, but the lion was also bad. I think it was witchcraft and he thinks it is a person & God thinks it's the devil & the demon hunter thinks it's a poltergeist.

All of the blogs say that the black lion is bad energy, because of the darkness. The black lion is an illusion because it is nothing but emotional turmoil. I know that I am safe, but it is a reminder of evil. 

Even right before I saw the black lion, then I could hear it scratching at the door and trying to get in the room for hours and I was looking there with my cell phone flashlight and could see nothing. I thought it was a rat too, so I put pillows under the door, but it didn't stop and nothing was there but a vision of the black lion, who told me everything with his eyes & then dissolved into the ether.

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Sunday, April 25th 2021

10:46 AM

Cats In Windows

There was a very large building with glass windows cut from the stone corners. The windows were small and rectangular and some were open and some closed. The windows that were ajar had curtains and plants growing outwards.

Several cats were climbing up the walls and going into windows. It seemed like more cats lived here than humans do. The cats looked very intelligent too, like they were supernatural because they were very strong & otherworldly.

The stone buildings are mostly made of gray granite, but there are some red brick ones there as well, which outline the tallest electrical lines which I have ever seen. The sun sets.

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Saturday, April 24th 2021

10:56 AM

Far Away

From where I am staying in a hotel room I can see myself sitting on a bed and trying to make phone calls to my ex bf who was a drug dealer. Then, I remember that he would answer the phone and never talk or care or ask how I was doing and I think he thought the phones were tapped.

Then, I get off of the phone and start thinking about what he was doing because he never told me but, at the same time I did already kind of understand. That is the whole feeling of the dream as well, is that feeling like your intuition is trying to tell you something but, then you ignore it.

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Thursday, April 22nd 2021

10:42 AM

Santa Luci

On the ground of a forest, there is a lady who has ashy blonde brown hair and she is covered in blood all over her face. She has cuts underneath her eyes that look like they were made by thorns.

I can hear the devil speaking just as he does to me like with a quiet serpents whisper the names Lucifer & Santa Luci, Santa Lucia.

The reason for this I am not sure, but as my astral self backs away from the bloody body, than I see a very large silver rat run into some blackberry bushes. I can also see a white rabbit to my left side, beneath an apple tree, which bares red fruits.

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Wednesday, April 21st 2021

11:08 AM

Baby in Sunlight

I see someone just holding a baby in a car seat and everything is white around it. It is like maybe one month old or less and wearing a white blanket.

The sun shines on the baby and it is very bright outside. Then, the mother who is holding the baby puts black & red rectangular sunglasses on the baby.

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Tuesday, April 20th 2021

10:36 AM

Fairy In The Tree

The sky is brown, the trees are as well and the sun has already set because it is very dim. I look up into a tree that is next to me and I can see the leaves, they are large and green and waxy.

I can hear like a fluttering noise and so I glance up high and see a brown fairy, that looks like a butterfly with a stick as it's body, look at me. The more intrigued I would become, the more it would fly upwards, until it was gone.

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Wednesday, April 14th 2021

1:06 PM

Pregnant but Really Fit

I am staring at a very long mirror and I am wearing black panties and i can see that i'm pregnant because my stomach is moving. My stomach is really fit & thin though, but when the baby moves, i can feel it.

It intrigues me in the dream, although I can't understand how that I am pregnant- I do lovingly caress my stomach. It's weird though how good my body looks for being pregnant and also the fact i haven't had sex for years so, it's intriguing...

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Saturday, March 20th 2021

1:33 PM

Golden Oil

In a beautiful place where there is a fire softly burning in a room with a large high ceiling space. The majority of the room is made of wood and a black onyx stone, especially the fireplace, which is richly carved in intricate fleur patterns and smooth lines.

Then, i notice that i am on a deep red rug that has silk knot rope on the ends and more gold fleur designs. It is a warm and inviting space and it inspires me to rub gold oil all over my body and it feels really good.

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Friday, March 12th 2021

10:14 PM

Collecting Black Clothing

I'm in a very large house, cause it almost reminds me of a dollhouse by the sheer size of the structure and there are many rooms. The majority of the floors are in wood paneling and very beautiful and shiny.

I just go from room to room and start collecting clothing. All of the clothing is black colors and varying textures and fabrics. The pieces are very dark and beautiful and I can hear the folding sounds they make when i pick them off of the floor.

I'm not sure what i'm doing with the clothes- maybe i am cleaning them in the laundry. They are very clean looking already, so i am not really sure but, i do seem to look at them with a type of fascination.

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Tuesday, December 29th 2020

8:31 PM

Wet Tarot Cards

A table in front of me with a white top is soaked in puddles of rain and there are a deck of tarot cards in the middle. All of the cards are drawn in classic ink outlines and the backs are silver. They look like my first pair of tarot cards ever.

They are so soaked that they are warped but, I still did a reading. The cards I got were in alternating designs and in the middle is the fool and the second was the Heirophant reversed. Usually I draw three of them, but, in this reading I did two.

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Sunday, December 20th 2020

2:45 PM

Deer's Blood

At first it feels like I am the person who is the woman in the dream, but she looks more like an actress- similar to Agnes Bruckner from the movie Blood & Chocolate. She has blonde hair like lion colored and she is on the telephone, but it looks like it is from the 80's or something.

She walks upstairs to the shower and it's running. Her husband is in there with another man, but she doesn't care and they look at her with concern because she is covered in blood, especially her hands. She looks at them and says she ran over a deer but, it's ok because it means the wish has come true.

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Saturday, December 5th 2020

10:24 PM

Trap Door House

In an interdimensional space in time, there is a house that exists in several different realms. From the outside, it looks like it was built in the modern times, with tall cascading towers and windows from all side, which illuminate everything in sight.

I go in the entrance with the black door with my family and they wait in the bedroom and go to sleep. Everything appears to be made from wooden furniture and is very clean and neat. I paused however though, and stayed awake because I was concerned at what I had noticed.

Nearly every room and hallway had some type of trap door installed. There were doors everywhere, which were made to look invisible unless you were looking for them. As I stared at the one on the ceiling, I could see it move a bit, as if someone was behind it.

I crawled up and looked at it and I got scared because I noticed there was a hyena type of werewolf shapeshifter in there. He ran away and I chased him to see what was going on. I went through this space, to another crawl space, where it was day time.

I looked out as it ended and there was a cemetery there, that looked gothic and must have been built in the 1800's. It looks like the oldest one they could have been there with the gravestones and design.

I don't get out of the tunnel then, because I see all of the other creatures, standing up and walking around that place, like it existed in another time. I turned around and went to the night place where Paul and the dogs were sleeping and I tried to quietly wake them up and move them outside.

As soon as I began to wake them up and we went to walk, a bunch of the creatures came taring down the hallway where we were going, so we took another secret portal and I took them to a safe place and then turned back around to go back to the house and explore the different doorways. I kept outrunning the creatures, even though they were so fast and it was scary, but also fun.

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Tuesday, December 1st 2020

12:02 AM

Taking the Wrong Flight

There is a really tall building and I am on the top floor of it. It is a airport building. Well, I am sitting in the waiting room, but I cannot stay awake- so, I fall asleep in a cream leather chair.

I have a strange sensation of being startled, so I make my way to the nearest line, as I struggle to get my eyes open. Because of all the commotion- it feels like I am going to miss my flight, so I rush into the airplane.

Then, I realize after I look around and see how small it is, that it can't possibly be going to where I am headed because the ticket says Miami, Florida- which also sends strange emotions through me because I lived there before and did not have a great experience. So, I fill up with dread.

I can't speak as I try to call people on my phone and talk and I start to have a panic attack. Then, finally someone asks me what is wrong and i show them the ticket. They show more people and reassure me it will be ok. In fact, they set up a place for me to stay overnight.

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Saturday, November 28th 2020

9:19 PM

The Titanic 2

A man with dark hair starts talking to me in outer space. He is just floating in the sky by the moon.He tells me a story that he helped to build the Titanic ship, which sunk in 1912. He claimed to be on the Titanic when it went down.

Then, he went on to explain that in the far future, he was reincarnated in order to build a spaceship, which looks like a bus of some kind. But, he said that on the second time- his bus that would travel around the moon wrecked and he was killed with the ship again.

He showed me on the outer space ship the different rooms and art that was aboard. There was a nice balcony, overlooking a waiting area with furniture all made of blue leather. The front of the waiting room had a giant tree carved out of some type of blue stone as well, which protruded from the wall with gemstones inlaid on various parts of the trunk.

As I go to the waiting area, I notice a silver coin near the floor and a security guard winks at me and continues to survey the area. I follow the man that first guided me to the navigation deck and it is a huge window where you can see the moon and a huge painting of him as a captain on the titanic is in the room.

Then, the ship crashes as he stands under the painting. Then, we are back in outer space again floating and he asked if i could help him change the future. I said that I can try.

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Monday, November 16th 2020

2:31 PM

Baby Black Kitten

The dream is very dark and there is really no lights, but I can see what's in my way anyway, because all around me is glowing. I must be in an abandoned house, or maybe one that I am paranormal investigating, because I am looking for supernatural stuff.

From under one of the beds, there is a small black short haired kitten without a collar and it looks at me in the eyes in love but fear as well. Then, it darts all around the room and comes back to me, like maybe it wants my help.

Whatever the case, it causes me to giggle and laugh at how cute it is. I end up scooping it up off the ground, kissing it's forehead and taking it home. I remember in the name I was calling him Jack.

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Monday, November 16th 2020

12:10 PM

Rolling Stone Magazine

In the dream, I am shopping in a store and I go up to a magazine rack because I see myself on the cover, but it looks very strange. It is Rolling Stone Magazine but, it looks terrible.

On the photo of me, there is no filter at all and the lens is wrong, so it looks like I have 1,000 zits or something and my hair is awful. The hair is all plain black and very straight, so that it's also frizzy and dry. Then, I am wearing loose ponytail pigtails with leather wrapped ribbons, which I refuse to wear animal products like that in real life.

It makes me feel a whole bunch of different emotions and I can't even remember doing the photo shoot, but somehow it is there- like I did it. Then, people in the supermarket start to stare at me, but they won't say what's on their minds, even though I can read their thoughts and I get frustrated again.

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Friday, November 13th 2020

1:17 AM

Eating A Cake

A bunch of dogs are in my kitchen and Paul is there too. He hands me a cake and tells me to eat it. It is full of colorful frosting on a silver cake sheet. The cake is shaped like a 3d dog that is putting his head to the ground on his paws. He is a blonde dog.

I take the cake to the table and I eat the entire thing to myself. As I am devouring it, I start getting really sick and sweating and my teeth hurt, but I just keep going. I keep going until I am finished and then fall asleep, but then wake up in reality and I was covered in sweat.

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Thursday, November 12th 2020

1:08 AM

Buying A Bear

I go back in time to the home I lived in when I was a teenager. When I lived in Deer Lodge, Montana. My stepmom and my father are in my bedroom and they are yelling at me about something and she is waving her hands frantically.

When she leaves the room, my dad just keeps yelling at me and I can't seem to speak even though I want too. My stepmom comes back and she has bought a brown grizzly bear and it is standing up like a human and she has it by a metal gold leash and collar. I feel like they got the bear to intimidate me because it is growling, mean and very scary.

Once again, I am so afraid that I cannot speak or defend myself, even though I am really trying to and it is very disappointing and frustrating. Then, my spirit guides were putting in images of doing tarot and spiritual things in my head the same way, like if they were my dream parents.

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Wednesday, November 4th 2020

6:03 PM

Burning A Pineapple Tree

In the backyard of a wooden house, there is soft mud under my feet that I can feel through my sneakers as I walk towards a giant tree- which is in the center. A friendly man with dark hair walking besides me explains kindly that it's a pineapple tree.

A large group gathers around us and excitedly start talking amongst themselves about how they are planning to burn the tree. There is children there and they are getting excited.

We stand there as the men throw gasoline on the tree trunk and strike it with a torch. The flame burns very quickly and suddenly disappears in space with the tree. There isn't even burn marks leftover.

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Monday, October 26th 2020

1:17 PM

Beautiful Tiger

In my dream, I am the same way I am in bed, but it is lucid, like I am awake hovering over my body. To my right side is a bright orange tiger. He has a very noble presence and it is comforting and protective.

He is not completely solid matter, but he appears in a haze of grey smoke. His coat is soft and shiny, like orange velvet. As he looks in my eyes, I can see that where there should be his eyeballs, there are blue sapphires instead.

The stones protrude out of the eye as if they can leave his body and float around the room as he wishes. He seems proud, like he just showed me a new trick or something. Then, vanishes away with a mischievous energy.

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Tuesday, October 20th 2020

4:48 PM

Woman In A Barn

A woman, who is about three hundred pounds and has short black hair, wearing dark blue sweatpants and a light blue shirt- makes strange shouting noises from a barn. I run over and it turns out that she is actually a ghost.

I ask her why she is making so much noise, and she tells me she is haunting the place because she can't get out of the room. She points upstairs, where there is an attic. She explains with her hands that is where she is sleeping.

She tells me all these things I have to do for her, so she can finally leave. The things are such small tasks like giving messages to people and mailing items from the barn to a family member, such as- an oil lamp, grains for horses and riding boots.

I do all the tasks and she is very grateful for my services, so i am happy too because I can feel her sense of purpose fulfilled. Than, she opens the door out and walks away in the sunlight.

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Monday, October 5th 2020

12:09 PM

Mountain Lions

In the same house and room from the previous two dreams, I am sitting in my bedroom in the dark. Now, it's completely night and there is only light from the moon and stars- cast through the eastern window.

I keep hearing ghosts whispering about mountain lions from the hills and valleys and trying to make some sense of what is being spoken. It is hard to hear, but I immediately get the chills when I realize that my room is filled up with mountain lions and they are walking around so silently, that they cannot be heard.

I see flashes of their earth colored fur and tails and eyes as they walk past the dresser and moonlight. The ghosts are whispering to me that they can't hurt me, but I can feel my heart beating so fast. Everyone else is in the house sleeping, so I can't make a sound to wake or startle them, to ruse them from their slumber.

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Monday, October 5th 2020

11:55 AM


The weather is still murky and dark. My sister and Ryan are there with me again, but instead of being back in the house- we are at the grocery store. Abby walks off in an unknown direction and Ryan and I begin to shop for groceries.

We buy so much stuff and he fills up the cart to the top with all different kinds of food. I was assuming that it was for me, until we went into the parking lot. He carries it over to a random pickup truck and I see a ghost of an auburn haired woman sitting there.He puts all the groceries from the paper bags in the truck and I immediately am overcome with despair.

He claims that she has all these kids that have to be fed, but I know that the money was meant for me. He tries to tell me a pity story, but then I exclaim, well shes on welfare or something and now I have nothing to eat.

We ride back to the house, where my father and step mother are resting in bed. It is still very low lighting. I try to tell them that he spent the $300 that was meant for me on someone else and I have nothing to eat, but my throat chakra is blocked, so that I cannot speak.

I manage to scribble something about it on the paper and my father doesn't care. He's like saying well he's a christian and I am not one- even though I exclaim I have no food. Then, Abby shows up and says, well you were given $300 like years ago, weren't you and no one cares or will help me get the demon off.

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